How have you been? I’m kind of ashamed to admit that I’ve never really spoken to you like this before. For as much as I love you, for as long as I’ve been around, I’ve never just stopped to ask you how you’ve been. Sorry about that. But if you want, let me know by replying! I’d love to hear you tell me yourself.
I hope you’re doing well. I think you’ve seen better days, sure, but you’re in an exciting place right now! Expanding to other games is something that people have always wanted to see you do, ever since I joined two and half years ago, and I’m glad to see you’re finally doing it. (Still hoping to see the day that FirePowered has a Fistful of Frags server. ) Times are changing, and you’re changing with, and that’s awesome. I hope you continue to grow and prosper.
And how am I doing? Amazing. I’ve never been so happy in my life. I’ve been struggling with depression for the last two or three years, and I’m finally beating it back into submission. I’m doing well in college (although not perfect – reading Homer’s Iliad in the original Greek is really, really fucking hard ). I’ve made more friends in the past few months than I could have dreamed of, and almost all of them will be friends for life. I joined a co-ed sorority, and that has been an amazingly enriching experience. I’ve been getting really involved with my college’s band program, which is also a really rewarding experience. One of the friends I made through both of those things is actually getting really, really close to me. Ultimately, I just value her friendship, so I don’t care if nothing comes of it, but I actually think we might start dating soon. (Here’s hoping I’m not wrong. ) I’ll be posting some pictures of all that in the Member Pictures thread later soon, so check that shit out.
So why am I writing you on this fine day? Well, FirePowered, I’ll be frank, and let you in on a secret that I should have a while ago: I’ve moved on.
I wish I didn’t have to type those words. I never thought that I would. And yet it’s true, isn’t it? I uninstalled Team Fortress 2 a month or so ago. The last time I remember playing was Wave 666 for Halloween… and that was the first time I’d played in months too. Hell, even my forum use has deteriorated. It’s reached a point where I basically just log in so that I can get rid of all my notifications for the next time I log in. It makes me sad more than anything else.
And as much as I’d love to stick around to help FirePowered expand into new games, to play them with you guys, I’m not really in a point in my life where I can afford to anymore. Remember how I said I was in college, and getting really involved with all those things I mentioned? Sad as it is to admit, those things just mean way more to me than video games do now. I still try to make a little time to play a game or two per day. Recently that’s been Fistful of Frags, for example. But I’ve had to cut way down on that, and I should probably cut it out entirely. I have my suspicions that I will have to uninstall Steam if I’m gonna successfully survive my junior year of college without depression seizing hold of me once more. I wish it wasn’t so, yet I know where my priorities are. And all of the really great things I’m doing IRL all take precedence over you, FirePowered, much as I love you.
I could attempt to name individuals for whom I am grateful, but I’m too afraid that I would forget somebody who really matters to me. In addition, a great deal of my favorite individuals have moved on, and would never see it if I were to thank them. I will say, however, if you are reading this, there’s a very good chance you’re on the list. I love every member of the FirePowered community who I got to know in my time here.
If you would like, you may PM me and request a link to my Facebook profile. A lot of you are already friends with me on Snapchat, and if that’s so, you’re welcome to be my Facebook friend as well. You can even request a link if we’re not friends on Snapchat for whatever reason. Just know that if you are not a member or ex-member, the chances of me sending you that link are slim. Don’t be offended if you request it and I don’t give it.
I will miss you, FirePowered. Really. More than any words I could write could possibly convey. I’ve made friends and memories who will never leave me, and I’m so grateful for that. It was a positive influence in my life during some of my formative years, and one I enjoyed the hell out of, to boot. Even though I may be moving on, I’ll check in sometimes, and I’ll be sure to tell everyone I know how much I love this community, how much good it’s done both for me and for others.
I’ll end this all by saying two things. First, I’d like to wish everyone reading this what I doubtlessly wished you when you first posted in the Introduction forum: may your time here be long and joyous. I wish that to both every member of you, FirePowered, but also to you yourself. I hope that 10, 20, 100 years from now, if I’m still alive, I can type in my credentials and log on to the forums and see what’s going on here. Second, I’d like to end this by saying one of my favorite words. It’s a noun. It’s an idea. It’s a way of saying goodbye. It’s something I wish for the world, for every member of this community, and also for the community itself. Because there’s not enough of it in any of those places, all three places I love dearly, and that just makes me really sad. What is that word?
*exits stage right*